I’m back to University again. This is going to be a tense period for me, as along with everything else I do, I should get prepared for my final state exams in June. Yes, probably June still seems quite afar from this point, but time is flying for me and I always panic before some important events, with the fear not to manage to do everything on time or properly. But I just need to work hard as to get my red diploma, no, not for putting it into my dowry, as is the case with many girls here, and not that I learn for marks, just I got only excellent marks and it would be pity if I don’t get them for my final exams.
I’m still wondering whether it is so important to have a state diploma for getting a job. For I’m not studying at the Yerevan State University, my one is a private university with state license, or whatever they call it. And yet, people tell me I should have applied to the state one. It’s a matter of prestige. Of course I did, unless I got the pass mark, but for some reason my name wasn’t included in the list and later got a call from an employee of that university offering to enlist my name if I paid $1500.
At that point really I loathed from that university and my decision to move to this current one wasn’t unsteady anymore. Starting my education with corruption would be a great beginning, but that’s not for me. And although many people reproached me for moving, I was adamant in my decision and would always say – The professors only put you on the right direction, and it’s only up to the students to take it, go deep into it, or refuse it. As my professor of foreign literature said, “You think I give some other lessons and lectures at other universities? No, I’m the same everywhere, as are my methods and the lessons I conduct”. Then what is the difference between the state and private universities? The students? But aren’t they different at any place, I mean, aren’t there weak and strong, dull and brilliant students at any university?
There is one exception of course – the outrageous amount of corruption at State Universities. My university is not a perfect one, moreover, it has many defects against which I always tried to fight and not once rebelled and complained, which amounted to some demonstrations, changing the English Lexics’ teacher whose methods we didn’t like at all, or demanding a proper material for studying. But at least I get the mark which I deserve and not the mark which my dad’s pocket can afford. And no one ever made us give bribes, which is the case with the state university where most of my friends study and no matter how hard they try and break their heads, the excellent marks are only for those who have a non-tangency status on the high levels – children of politicians, businessman, oligarchs, etc – and when especially their money is played up, and of course for some one or two students who are clever in reality, but the point of putting high marks is just for a general effect and impression that eventually they do grade without taking money, for general opinion, for a pure reputation. I’ve had the chance to talk about it in this blog in the past.
And if I’m not studying at the state university, this must mean that I’m not a good specialist if I haven’t bribed my professors, or that I’m a bad or a retarded student, or that the privilege for getting a job should go to a graduate of a state university???
Well, I guess I went far into this, didn’t mean this to be so long 😉
Just at this point, yesterday my dean called me to his office just when the bell rang and I was getting prepared for my Spanish lesson. One of the professors didn’t come and the dean asked me to conduct that lesson at the first year students. That seemed like a very serious responsibility, because I had worked with pupils at school, but students are different. Well, I was glad, anyways. If he chose me for that responsibility out of all the students, that was to say something. While introducing me to the students, he lauded me enough, and later he mentioned that I’m the only straight A-student in the whole faculty. Wow! Really? I didn’t know about it. No way, really no other A-students? I was flattered 😉
Anyways, I got into contact with the first year students pretty easily, I was not going to give them lecture on History of Antique Rome, which was supposed to be their lesson for that hour, so I started talking about education in general, also asking whether they were involved in anything else apart from their lessons. Unfortunately, no, they weren’t. But there was a diasporan girl from US whose stand points were rather interesting to me. She started complaining about the life in Armenia, her bitter experience with medical treatment here, corruption, the education she was receiving here, because she thought the methods and lessons conducted here are so insignificant if compared to what she studied in US. I mentioned the point that students should not just wait for what the professors will assign, that they must work on themselves and try to get more and more if they really languish for education and want to explore new avenues in it. But to my question whether she tried to contribute to the changings for the better along with complaining, she just answered; “I’m just having fun here, I come to classes because I have free time to kill. My whole future, my education, everything is in America. Armenia is a wonderful summer resort country. I’m here now because my fiancé is here, but we’ll be back to US soon. And there when relatives asked me how it was in Armenia, I said I’d rather keep silence if they didn’t want to learn some pessimistic points about it”. Her points were so clear to me and she had a point in a way. This had become just another foreign country where some of her relatives live and that’s all.
I raised the apathy factor. Actually it is the most distinct thing for finding the cores of the problems, even a blind can do it, that’s so clear. And while most of the students agreed that the girl was apathetic because she wasn’t anymore interested in anything here, they couldn’t answer to my question – what they, being native Armenians, do by themselves for a change for the better. The upcoming elections didn’t pass omit at that point and I was all but near to conduct a voter education ;
If any consolation, a girl said she was arranging to gather some toys with students and go to some children’s house. Although I said that many students do it nowadays and that those children need more communication than toys, I agreed to help them in management and gave some more ideas as to what they might do along with it.
All in all, I can say it was a productive ….mmm… can’t call it a lesson… but it was something!
If not taken into consideration the declinations form the subject, if there was any anyways, I started this post trying to say that I will have less time for blogging this time onwards, but now I got assured that if I have and want to say something, I always find time for it, so can’t now say that I won’t blog frequently, but as a part of my psyche, I’m panicking again and want to get prepared for the exams starting from now. That’s in the first place for me, of course not forgetting about my duties before my nation 😉